Originally Posted by
rich624 
I have tried it several times and it wasn't working for me.
I understand you are in a very stressful situation right now Rich. What you need to remember is that this didn't just "happen" to you. And what has transpired is not something you can change. As you say, one of the worst things that could possibly happen has happened - but you are still here.
What worked or didn't work in the past is kind of irrelevant now - you need to seek help from wherever you can to get alcohol out of your life. And you have to want it to be out of your life forever - all of your problems are because of your choice to keep drinking. Making the choice to maintain absolute sobriety is the only thing you should really be focusing on at this point.