Other points:
For context, see my other thread titled “how do I accept that I am capable of anything when drunk?”
And another thing that helps me have COURAGE today
I imagine that thousands and thousands of people relapse everyday
And I don’t want to undermine the dangers of addiction, it can ruin and end lives
But I imagine that most people do not die or make an irreversible mistake that sends them to prison for life just because they relapsed
Otherwise
Sites like this and AA meetings wouldn’t exist
Every addict would be dead or in prison for life
So I choose to believe this (instead of my irrational and fearful obsessive thinking):
If I did relapse, I have faith in myself and trust in my subconscious mind and trust in the universe that
I WOULD recover again and something deep within me would prevent myself from making an irreversible mistake
I WOULD be one of the many who rise up and overcome the relapse
And if I’m wrong, I will bravely accept that because that must be the nature of the universe
These thoughts keep me hopeful
Thanks all