Hi darinissober
I really wish that I had realized that as soon as the bargaining stage starts it's the beginning of the end and it's better to just be done and stop it there and then because a whole lot of pain and heartache follows. I hated the whole thing, it removes any pleasure you get from drinking and just becomes a vicious cycle of deprivation and binge drinking and it really, really sucks.
I failed in moderating, I don't recommend you put yourself through it.