I’d say any drunk is a bad drunk.
If I were you knowing what I know I would quit it once and for all.
Rebuild you life with different experiences that make you happy.
If this idea makes you sad, I don’t think you should be making deals with the devil.
Don’t want to sound too hard. But then again if what is say does sound too hard there is a problem at bay.
Good luck
Oh and, it’s so much nicer not living with the nag of the booze.
I would hate to think that nag was relentless once again. A world of pain.