Hi darinissober - I'm so glad you're here & taking a look at what drinking is doing to your life.
Like the others, I was unable to moderate. I wanted more than anything to just enjoy a couple drinks now & then. All attempts at control failed. One drink in my system & all my resolve went out the window. Refusing to stop all together led me to 24/7 drinking eventually - and a ruined life. All the things I swore I'd never do - I did. (Morning drinking, drinking at work, driving when I shouldn't have.) I hope being here will help you avoid the pain many of us have experienced.