Arpeggioh

Unfortunately, for me it had to get 'bad enough,' the emotional pain and the physical deterioration, to finally reach my limit. All of these replies resonate: finally wanting sobriety more than I wanted another drink, making 'not drinking' the only focus of the first few days, making a commitment to myself that I wasn't ready to die all bloated and yellow...but truly, for me, it had to get really bad, like unlivable bad. I don't know how bad things are in Oregon, nor do I know your capacity for suffering. Is it bad enough to be unbearable yet? I can promise you a better life if you quit drinking completely...I surely wish you the best, I waffled and suffered and tried and failed for years. I was 56 before I finally threw in the towel and quit fighting with alcohol.