Eventually go back to f2f meetings. I do 2 online meetings a day.. but I need real people. One of the last meetings I went to this girl was high and really disruptive. Kept yelling out. She was just out of jail and left halfway through. I am physically alone everyday except if I have to go out. I am really committed to AA now. But I can't live with bad withdrawals. 40 a day is a lot to come down from. I still feel it now. At least I will get some kind of sleep. I may seem weak but doing the best I can