Hi Free, try to remember the reasons why you chose to get sober. Do you have any journals or old posts on here from your last days of drinking or early sobriety? In moments like that it always helped me to read actual proof of how awful I felt and how difficult it was for me to get through the days without a drink.
Ironically the further I come in recovery the more often I do forget this and think that I could drink in moderation. (The good thing is that also the further I come in recovery the less I see a point or anything rewarding in getting that buzz or numbing myself.)
But when I was still missing it and feeling like maybe, just maybe I could have it every now and then, it helped me to read through how bad I felt and also I had made a list with all the reasons why I no longer wanted to drink.
Also remember that it's always just for today
