It could be both Sweetichick?
I hope you'll reconsider and not wipe the rest of the day off. Mixing meds and booze is very dangerous as I'm sure you know.
We all want you to grasp hold of a new better life
Maybe it's time to approach your BP or your therapist about your mental health?
As for AA - Service meeting or not.if you don't ask for help, how does anyone know you need help?
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