I can totally relate AintDeadYet! I felt like my whole identity was the crazy badass jackwagon putting on a show. I wanted the frat party to last forever and was always willing to go ham to make that happen. Watching Animal House is a trigger, so is pre- and post-game/concert tailgating. The difference is now I fast forward to the morning after and as much as I want to go back to the frat party, I REALLY don’t want to go back to the hangover!