Originally Posted by
Juno11 
I'm feeling tremendously relieved at this point - relieved that I've figured things out and just the realization that I never have to drink again. It's liberating and fantastic. One of the things I noticed the last few times I drank was that I wasn't enjoying myself, I wasn't able to do anything productive or even semi-productive, and just felt trapped and awful. I never need to feel that way again.
This is what happened to me when I went back to drinking after 5 years sober. my productivity crashed and all i could think about was when i would drink again.
Thankfully now all I want is this pain of withdrawing to go away and i really hope i never have to drink again and that the desire for booze/beer disappears from my life...