The letters are actually your co-dependcy continuing to feed your insanity.
Why do you think it's his goal in life to deserve to be with you?
Like you said, it's driving you nuts.
My handle is nutz for a reason.lol
I'm not trying to be mean. I'm going through it
This question was presented to me as will.
What are you getting out of this relationship ?
When will you hit bottom?
When will you have enough?
It's a process...detachment is a start ,but I did just like you.
I keep falling in the traps or dis-ease. i get suck in without even know at times.
Other times...just five minutes after promising myself not to do that again.
The guilt trips or hope that it'll be different this time.
Here she comes and bam!!! 2 months later.. I going out of my freaken mind,
again. I've been with this person for over 9 years now. The bottom gets
deeper and deeper and it gets worst and worst.
I've cried enough tears to fill entire oceans.
Everybody I know, family, friends in and out of recovery.
will..you know what they all say...GET the F@#K away from her.
They all know that I love her..cuz i'm nutz.
and the results is not the same..it's freaken worst.
I've been working on myself and learning, practicing loving myself.
Learning everything about me ..writing about me.
As I heal and get stronger...she gives me a damn headache.lol
It's first things firsts....remember my ABC's
Aviod negative people, places, things, and habits.lol
Yes I can forgive...but I'm don't have to be a damn doormate.
Educate yourself to this fact of co-dependcy.
Reach out to others