Dear Mera. We are long time friends, you and I. I think of you often. Would come over to see you but I am 91 and a bit old to make the plane trip safely. So afraid I'd fall. I often relapsed when I was trying to maintain sobriety. Relapses are so unpleasant (an understatement). Panic, sleeplessness.
We are here to help you. We shall be always here. I'm often depressed, even after many years of sobriety. The best thing I can do is reach out and try to help some other person who is depressed. Try to climb the mountain together. Into the sunlight. The path may seem steep at first but it grows better as you go. Never give up! Never surrender! Churchill said it all!
Fondest love
Bill.