Anger
I haven't posted on here in a while but i come back to read other peoples stories.
I have been feeling so angry at myself lately for falling in love with someone who has an addiction. I feel i am at the end of my rope and that i am done..until he starts to come back around again. I am sick of not seeing him for days at a time, i am sick of being alone and feeling alone on my week-ends, i am sick of him putting drugs and god knows what else before me, i am mad at myself for letting all this bug me, i am mad at myself for thinking its something about me that makes him avoid me, i get mad at myself for all my negative thinking...and as soon as he resurfaces with a smile and a hi, i am swept back in....i am just angry and at this moment i am fed up.. i had to vent and get this out because i feel at times i am going crazy. ( i am in therapy but don't see her everyday..this was the next best place to be)
thanks for letting me vent.