Please remind me of things to keep me grounded
Ignore my last post I'm not resorting to something I havnt done in 4 years over an elderly mother who doesn't know if she is coming. She tried her best but her level of parenting is not capable of loving me.
I'm sorry if I disgusted any one by talks of the adult entertainment industry.im aware of the stigma. I hate it but I keep getting kicked when I'm down. I have my job still I can start romorrow after iop.im not doing the other thing it was a rant
Things I've learned: stay off Facebook
Forever I never liked it.
Shower
Take care of myself
It's ok to cry
Celebrate recovery or al anon
And get to iop worst case scenario a routine/structure/ good food/shower every morning.
No contact ever peeping at his page even from someone else's Facebook is breaking no contact.
Feel bad for me not him. Treat myself good.
He is not out living some fantastic life he is drinking him self to death. In his mind it may seem fun but the long term effects are awful.
Who cares I cancelled his phone line was tired of being a doormat.
Today was especially hard w missing 2 days and my mom. I get confused.
Ty