I remember being so hungover that I puked so hard that I burst blood vessels in my eyes.... while I was at work. It was utterly humiliating. So glad those days are behind me.
You can get better. You don't have to keep living this way.
What's your plan? I used AVRT which I learned about here on SR. But there are many ways out, keep looking until you find yours.
Hope you're feeling better today.