I did it! I got through the biggest low point I've had in a very long time without drinking!!! Thanks much to you all for being here for me!! Thank you so much. I asked my husband to sleep elsewhere last night and he respected that. Although, I woke up with him next to me. He really does love me. We talked it out and he understands why I was so upset. He has apologized and now I'll work on my self-esteem. Wow that was a very close call. I'd like to apologize for putting so much negativity on our wall.