Originally Posted by
venuscat 
How cosmic that I chose and needed to post this second....kev....darling.....I know, I know, I really know.....I lie awake all night thinking why????
You need to try and let go dear friend....he is closing the door. I have no idea how some people can be so cruel.....but your guy is exemplifying some fairly insensitive traits at this juncture.....this is not the man you loved.....this is the mean one you don't want or need anymore.
I love you. So much. I FEEL your pain. ♥♥♥♥♥
Originally Posted by
venuscat Andy.....how nice to see you here love.
kev honey......I am here for you, we all are....you have been through so much this past week.....and your hormones must be insane right now....everything will be harder to deal with....you need kindness and flowers and ice cream and maybe even something new....something you need that you can buy very reasonably on Amazon....that's what I did....I just re-bought my favourite Louise Hay book, You Can Heal Your Life and the companion guide as well....
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Thanks Venus, I love you too!
I know you, you know how it feels... I go back and forth between being so angry at the way he treats me, just shocked at how he could turn that way. And then I question what I have done wrong, how I upset him so much, if I was too pushy or asking for too much. If I should've kept the miscarriage thing to myself because if I'm honest, I knew he wouldn't take it well. But I was selfish and had to tell him, just because I thought it would help me a little bit. I always knew that it could happen he'd react badly and I'd fall even harder. And it happened. Like it happened every time in this relationship I tried to make him take responsibility for his actions or problems. I always end up feeling worse and wish I had kept suffering in silence, letting him have things his way. That can't be a good base for a relationship, can it?
I just never expected him to want to avoid me so much that he doesn't even want to see me when I collect my belongings. This was all new development since I told him about the miscarriage and I am so shocked. He was always the first calling other men out on their sexist behaviour or on not taking responsibility. I just never thought he'd do this. Not to that extreme.
I feel so burned out. I just don't know how to process all of this.