Honey, do you have a therapist or anyone like that? You are a totally worthwhile person. You mean the world to me and I'm sure everyone here as well as the people in your family. This will pass. Just hold on, stop the bad thoughts, even if you have to distract yourself, please don't pick up. This will pass and one day at a time. Tiles and Jimi had some good stuff for you too.
(((Sunshine)))♥♥♥