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sorry i havent been around so much on the 31st of july it was my step dads birthday my stepdad killed himself 7 years ago i OD'D and went to hostpital i was seeing things and a fews days later i saw the mental health crisis team saying that things where bad they told me to take extra meds and see how a got managed to go to bed but woke up at 4 am things got worse by then while my husband was sleeping i left the house in my night coat and pjs and took the bus to the bus station demons where following me wanting me to cut my throat etc they where gowing there eyes out etc the police was called when they got there i ran from them they took me to the hosptial they didnt do anything as they want the to see if the meds workso i was sent home went to the beach for the day with a friend went to go home and my mother was on the bus my mother is toxic and i found out throught flashbacks that she abused me when i was a child she dont know i know this she said my birthname told her to stop calling me by it as my birthname is triggering to me she had a go at me and me and my husband and friends got off the bus this was yesterday today am feeling very triggered and upset things am seeing and the voices ( my mum was on the bus i didnt see her as in my mental health because my husband and friend saw her too ) am still seeing things and my mental health isnt so great been taking meds as what they at the mental health crisis team have gotten me to take but its not helped there phoneing me tomorrow night to see how i am but i feel like am not doing so well unsure if i should call them