There's many ways of looking at a situation, if at the time of your posting you were at day 4, that's a postive thing! think about it, its the start of true sobriety! as long as we dont indulge we are in the process of sobering up. The real trick in a way as I like to describe it is to;
make peace with who you are and were you are in life.
The first few days of withdrawal and sobering up whether its drugs or alcohol are always hard both mentally and physically, we just gotta ride that wave straight to the shores of sobriety. If you can stick to that, I can promise you, life will be seen from a new perspective. Alcohol can float around through the body manipulating our perception of life, it is this insidious aspect that can lure us back rather quickly in early sobriety.
It's very important for you realize you are not alone and there is nothing wrong with you at all. You might think there is, but that is like beating up on yourself when our addiction is already doing a good enough job as it is. If you can shift your perception just a little bit, things start to improve and you'll realize that everyday you aren't drinking, means you're taking back control of your life!
You deserve the very best life has to offer and it shall come to you in sobriety if you let it and are willing to embrace it, one day at a time. Just be conscious of this whole process so you can actually notice the difference, alcohol might bring temporary relief, joy, etc, but the real joy of living comes from within and it's right there, wherever you are, ready to be recognized by you
