Hi AK
I don;t have any experience with OCD but I know many of our members battle alcoholism or addiction along with mental illness. I has recurring depressive episodes, or at least I did when I was drinking - they are comparatively rare now.
I think we have a duty of self care to ourselves.
I'm not sure what you do for OCD or who you see but I really urge you to get help for it. It'll help you battle the other demons in your life.
A battle on two fronts is hard, but there's a ton of support here
and for what its worth
I relapsed yesterday, badly (stayed up until 7am drinking by myself, passed out). I think when I relapse after having a sobriety attempt, I kind of go a bit nuts and drink more than ever as if I need to make up for it, I don't know.
I think most of us can identify with that trying to catch up kind of drinking - it's scary and dangerous.
I don't think it's exclusive to OCD folks?
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