welcome danrs
Glad things are looking up for. you ..I hope you close the door to future drinking tho - if you're blacking out and acting contrary to way you want to act now, things tend to get worse not better with continued drinking., and things can turn bad very quickly,
If there's a way to throw things into reverse I never found it.
what I did find was that I liked the sober me and I liked the life I could have a sober person.
Yeah it's radically different to my old life, but honestly by the time I quit my life was a mess.
I'm grateful for the chance to be the authentic me again - I hope you'll give yourself that chance too
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