Bran,
I was so kindled...and didn't even know it....that i was still in a mental hell...off and on for well over a year.
I didn't find sr until 80 days clean. I was probably certainly going insane.
I got reassurance i would heal and i hung in there.
I made it nearly 15 months once before i had a slip. It was peer pressure and a mistake.
I am a new man these days. Still getting better, but certainly out of the deep water.
I still crave daily and come here for therapy.
Thanks.