Cripes! so many new people on the thread this weekend
1st week home and so far everything has been going well (not trying to tempt fate here lol). I have absolutely no desire to drink but the odd thing is my auto-pilot mind hasn't realised I don't drink anymore. I have had a few moments this week where my mind thought "I'll pick up a bottle for tonight", not really out of stress or cravings in particular but more like when I moved house in the past, whilst driving home and not paying attention, I drove to my old house forgetting I had just moved! I catch the thought immediately and are not worried that I will pick up without realising but it just shows me how strongly the brain gets re-wired when we are in active addiction and how much work and consistent effort I need to put in to re-wire it in the right way. One thing that is firm in my mind is that no matter how bad things get, or how anxious/depressed/stressed I may get in life is that alcohol is not the solution and never will be. I used to say that as it was the right thing to say, but now I believe it with every fibre of my being. 52 days sober and I am so grateful that today has been a good sober day. xx