It has been a few months and I am remaining sober. Picked up my 4 month coin this week. Been doing okay for he most part, working 12 to 13 hours 7 days a week helps me not to think about my criminal case. Happened to talk to a vendor yesterday. He was telling me about him being sentenced 120 days in prison for his DUIs. After talking with him I've been extremely depressed. Honestly I am not sure my married, my business nor I can survive such a penalty. It is and I will (am) a total disgrace. I barley slept last night and my thoughts are of how to end myself without causing even more pain to others. Alcohol has ruined what should have been a well deserved good life. Sam