I invite you to consider that your Mom may be wrong about you? She is not your higher power, but you put her in that place. You put her there. You can take her down.
WF this is hard stuff. I have a very dysfunctional family. Don't need to go into details. I have to have a 'conference call' with my brothers tomorrow to discuss my parents diminishing health tomorrow. The brother that molested me will be on this call. To say that isn't very stressful is an understatement. My point being, I get it.
Your addiction wants you to continue the unhealthy relationship with your family because it justifies your drinking. Only you can choose to end that thinking and replace it healthy thinking. I would recommend starting with, who gives a fluck what anyone thinks of me. Truly. Think about that.