Thanks for the input guys.
I see what you say about normals being resentful, also about some of us not being resentful. For me it’s a huge thing. I drive about at work compiling lists of complaints, normally to the very people who are most trying to help me. And then when drunk ‘Booommmmm’ - I was an arse. It would all come out in horrible ways
Yesterday I could feel the anger leading me to crave drink. It was odd to watch it in slow motion.
I’ve only been sober a week or so but I want to stay sober. Mainly because of what it cost me to carry on. But also because I don’t want to lose this forward momentum. I’m only going slowly but I’m going!