24 more please.
These panicky feelings at work the past 2 days have me feeling insane. The unreality, disassociation and fainting feeling kept trying to rise above the surface anxiety. I was feeling so low today after work. But after a meeting, phone conversations with my mom and gram (who are visiting soon!!!) and a sunset hike, I am feeling so much better. I was feeling dreadful earlier not like I wanted to drink but like I wanted oblivion. I am grateful i am finding ways to cope that are not self destructive. I felt so positive a week ago, so I know it will get better. Tomorrow begins my own mediation bootcamp.
Today at the meeting a guy suggested the topic of pink clouds and when they burst. He said he picked up his 90 day chip and then felt like his pink cloud burst and is left feeling depressed. My favorite old timer said, "well young man, just find youself another pink cloud!". I'm going to do that.