I've been struggling with a relapse since the end of May... Haven't been able to get more than a few days. I get sad when I think about weekend trips that I've taken that were less fun because I was sneaking bottles around and secretly feeling dizzy and sick.
Today, my husband and I are starting Whole30 to jumpstart our new focus on wellness. I'm excited to start being a non-drinker today. I've taken so many drinks because I felt like I had to... I hated it and hated myself for being controlled by it. It's a new, clean, healthy day for me. I just don't have to do it anymore.
Thanks to everyone for posting, it's good to not be alone in the journey!