"I got this, I promise you guys."..Oh man..How many times did I beleive this? and sometimes I'd muscle through it just to prove others wrong..What's the old saying? "Play stupid games,win stupid prizes." That was me trying to test myself and being overly confident in early sobriety(in your case it's like not even 200hrs yet)..I can hear your bar boyfriend ordering you drinks and pizza now. I don't say that to be mean...I say that because my exAgf of 10-13yrs kinda kept me drinking,until I broke the toxic cycle. Because at the end of the day it was I allowing it to continue. OWN IT!