So believe me, I have an enormous amount of personal experience with the insanity of addiction. So no judgement .
You don't want to hear from your AV, but I'm pretty sure it's the one calling the shots. Respectfully, you did everything but burpees and jumping through hoops to keep from drinking last night. You were in the ER 4 days ago. Why on gods green earth would you go to the pub tonight? I mean, I like trivia as much as the next guy but, um, why would you do that to yourself? Oh my.