Originally Posted by
addictedToBeer8 
Maybe. I think I was doing well in my sober months. I didn't even crave any. I just thought I have power over beer, big surprise I was actually powerless. This time ill try to stick to my routine and never try to convince myself I can handle moderation. Have to accept it and be fine with it.
I also made a too big of a commitment. I quit beer, smoking and became vegan, which in turn did ill on my migraines. I'll try to deal just with the alcohol this time.
I confused abstinence with control many times too.
No one here can make you do anything
If you think your plan is solid and you just went off the plan, that's your call.
But at the very least I'd think about what made you want to drink again, and I'd think about the scenario where you think it possible to drink again and control it... and what you'll do in response to that next time
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