It’s been 24hrs since I last drank. Which isn’t unusual. It’s not hard for me NOT to drink. But hard for me to stop when I do drink. I’m not worried about today. I’m worried about 9-14days from now. But today was full of conversation with my husband. To find my outlet. To figure out my triggers. And to find out why I want to drink in the first place. To give myself something to bring more Satisfaction yo my life. And that I never want to drink again and how to remember the reasons why I don’t want to drink anymore when the memory of this guilt and shame go hazy.