My journey
Today is (yet again) my day one. I left the bar yesterday afternoon around 4:30pm. It’s 7:00am now. 14.5hrs later. And boy is the regret real. Why do I have such a hard time with this cycle? I go overboard. Hate myself. Say I’m going to stop drinking totally. Do so for a few weeks. And then I’m presenting with an opportunity and I tell myself that I can control it. Do so for several weeks. And then bam. Drink too much again. The cycle is consistent. And unchanging. So maybe I “journal” here. Every day. Even if to say “Day X: nothing to report but no booze”. I dunno. I am telling my 2 closest friends I’m done drinking. I’m telling my brother, who has been sober now for about 9mo. I’m telling my husband.
What else is missing from my “plan”