I'm glad you are back! You can get sober again. I learned the hard way that moderation doesn't work, st least not for me, and goodness knows I tried and failed enough to figure this out.
You should join the July of 2018 class, you will have the support of others committing or recommitting to sobriety this month. The 24 hour thread is another good place to check in.
You know you can do this, and you know how great waking up sober feels. The days will start to add up again.
Glad you're back!