Originally Posted by Frickaflip233

He's in a better place now. Having lost my husband to cancer I can assure you, he was not thinking about your drunken rambling....absolutely the last thing on his mind. So you can make it the last thing on yours too. Beating yourself up makes no sense. Say a prayer for him, light a candle, let it go. He's not suffering now. And you don't have to either, unless you choose to. But that is separate from his death....100%.