I was looking for something in my Recovery folder on the computer and stumbled across some writing I'd done about a year after XAH and I had split. I was astounded at how much pain I was still in, how much I was still struggling. I absolutely
knew that we were done as husband and wife, there was not one iota of doubt, but the amount of pain I was still feeling was incredible.
But it passed. It really did. I feel so much better now, 3 years after the split and 2 years after the writing I found. I am amazed that I was strong enough to have withstood all I felt, and I'm grateful to have found that writing to remind me of it.
I would strongly, strongly encourage you to keep some sort of journal. Even if you don't write in it every day, even if you just jot down a line or two. Mine has been simply invaluable to me in my recovery--looking back has done me so much good and taught me so much about myself, where I've been and what I've learned and lived through.
My friends, we are ALL so much stronger than we ever imagined!
