Thank you Gottalife and Dee. These comments made me think more deeply about this. I agree that I need to think more about how I deal with stress in general and find consistent healthy alternatives. I’m working on this through therapy and meditation, reading and coming here. I love the “trigger”analogy to life. A trigger is just another name for life. I’m like the alcoholic in that story because even though my drinking problem started as a result of self medicating through a very stressful time, in the end I’d come home from an absolute perfect day and still drink because it was a perfect day. I guess only alcoholics understand this. I completely relate to this idea. I am hanging on to my sobriety with everything I’ve got. Thank you again.