I think maybe I am making things hard for myself, booze has had a devastating effect on y health, I'm very overweight because of booze and Im a diabetic. I thought that since I was giving up the booze I could also diet at the same time to get my weight sorted out and my blood sugar down, Im only having 5 protein shakes a day so maybe thats not helping as Im constantly starving. Everything I do is the same, if I drink I drink to the extreme, if I diet I diet to the extreme, there doesn't seem to be any middle ground for me, I have to see instant results or get instant gratification, its crazy but Ive always been the same.