Deb,
I had no idea the amount of damage I had done to my body and brain until I decided to really learn.
This site and the internet saved me.
The crave is for life. It is chronic. The brain damage is irreversible.
Each relapse causes more and more insanity. Eventually, we stay crazy.
There is no getting out after too many relapses.
Knowledge and the desire to quit are what have gotten me this far.
Thanks.