Don't use that word if you don't want to. Maybe just think of it as an allergy to alcohol?
This is a good thread to explore re Recovery plans.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...y-plans-1.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
It's also worth looking up and noting down the local resources available to you.
If you really want to change, that's a great first step.
BB