well done on staying another 30 days MantaLady
sorry you've been having a bit of a bumpy ride, but every time you get through something challenging, it reinforces the learning that you can get through things without reaching for a drink. sitting with unpleasant feelings can be uncomfortable, but the sky doesn't fall, the feelings pass, & while they're passing we can bear them without having to change how we feel with alcohol.
take care & hope you learn lots from the rest of your stay!