Originally Posted by
clarity888 
I have no idea how I could ever forgive this part of active alcoholism. I can't even forgive myself for not seeing that it was happening.
I think I know how you feel, clarity, but in Alanon you'll hear it said that we don't know what we don't know--how could we? And also you'll hear "when we know better, we do better." Don't be too hard on yourself. What IS important is what you do w/that knowledge now that you have it.