Gilmer, you are a total diamond! I have been ok with him and shook hands yesterday so that is done now. I don’t think rehab is the place/environment for me, the laying low will not work as they will just keep pushing me and it’s making me feel worse about myself than I did before I got here. All has not been wasted here as I have learned a lot in some ways. I am only doing 30 days now definitely so will be flying home on Monday 9th.
I am crafting my recovery plan by myself in my spare time this week before I leave and when I get back will book 3 weeks away scuba diving. Diving is the only thing I do that I feel truly in the present moment and in terms of grounding me, giving my mind a rest from racing thoughts and the physical improvements I think this will be much better for me to do. I have been diving all over the world on my own and I have never drank alcohol on any of those holidays as it ruins the experience so it’s also a good thing I can do sober and enjoy.