Then again, it may not be appropriate for me to be writing here. I don't live in a world where never drinking again is an option. I just have to get my life together before I really hurt myself or someone else, and I think step one is sobriety.[/QUOTE]
-as long as you are self aware and TRYING that is all that matters. Control is everything. Once you gain control of yourself, everything will fall into place. I know because I am in your boat. I made it to 57 days before my first slip. Starting over sucks, but now I know that I can actually not drink when triggered because I am now in control, I see those 57 days as a challenge. If I can make it 57 I damn sure can make it 90.
Dont count the days, just live life in the now.