I'm glad you made it back SK.
There's some good advice in this thread.
'I'm an alcoholic and I love to get high' is a pretty handy generic 'don't ask me any more questions' kind of response but as TS says there's several hundred of us here for whom that used to hold true...but it doesn't anymore, no matter what.
sometimes you gotta pee;l back the layers of the onion a bit and get to what went wrong and why.
There is life after addiction and the door is open to anyone who wants to walk through it
You're lucky - you have the opportunity to write a chapter 2
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