Relapsed after a year...
Hello there,
It's been very difficult to come back here and admit I relapsed after almost a year sober. I called my sponsor today to talk, and told him I am extremely uncomfortable to attend some of the regular meetings I used to attend, and asked if I could start out with some smaller ones that I am more comfortable with.
He told me that I was arguing and trying to exert my own will. I see what he's saying, but honestly what's wrong with starting out with meetings that I actually can get myself to go to?
Anyway, I am physically dependent on alcohol right now, and I am considering detox if need be. However I am not sure if my insurance will cover it.
Thus, starting today I am going to wean off, and I want to use this as a way to hold myself accountable.
I know the risks and If things get bad i'll definitely seek medical attention.
Thanks for listening