Aw sweeti, I know what this is like. I lost my ex in 2010. We were still friends.
I just lost another person I was very close to. He was just in my bed 2 weeks ago, not like that. We were in one of those hysterical moods where we could not stop laughing. My belly hurt and I had to leave the room cuz I was laughing so hard. That was the last time I saw him. I too called his phone and it went straight to voicemail which was unlike him bc he was the king of chargers. I knew something was wrong.
I have been drinking too. Do you have support? That’s important. Thinking of you sweeti, my heart is broken for us both.
Xoxox