Originally Posted by
Springforward 
53 Days sober from a 5TH of Vodka daily.
I have been romancing the thought of get loaded ( drinking ).
I have not drank, my mind seems to be encouraging me that i will feel better with a drink then drinks.
I know that drinking is not the answer. I was so use to drinking everyday for years, now everything is different, not feeling well, not-sleeping good, unable to let go and relax.
Any thoughts or suggestions would be very helpful...
Nothing good will come. I, too was a 5th/spread through the day drinker. I did 17 days of no booze, got back on the exercise train and was eating well. I thought I had a good excuse to have a few one night... a month later I was right back to where I was even though I told myself I’d be different than these other stories and I could handle it.
When I went back to day 1 (22 days ago) I was worried I was going to have a full fledge panic attack, if not heart attack... and I paced around my house wondering WHY GOD WHY would I set myself back to square one after conquering those initial hurdles once?!
I wouldn’t do it, man! Be well!